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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 06:09

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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Would this be the day?

What did i know ?

We were not on the streets..

Why do men like low maintenance women?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

So, i spoilt her more .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I write beautiful poetry .

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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So whats the point in blame.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

We all went to grammer schools

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I was scared of men, in general

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I waited trembling.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

It was going to be , some day.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I don,t even have a pension.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I have no regrets .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She wouldn,t have been !

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Ive learnt so much.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

He knew the spot.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I was seconnd youngest,

I think the readers, may guess!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

And i lived it daily.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I was very sick at this time too.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I never cut or harmed myself..

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Im still living with it.

My life is so biszare .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Comes on , in middle age.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Especially a lifetime of it.

(And it was in our own minds.)

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But, we were locked up after school.

He resisted the act ,that day.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

This is soul school!.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

But it wasn’t much.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She found it foreign!.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

My family never makes their pension either.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I will be 64.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

One cannot live in the past .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Why did i forgive my father ?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

When she asked me how she looked .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She was in good health!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

All the time i was locked up.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I said to her

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Put me off passion for life!!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I was 9 years of age.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She loved him until the end.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Who then, do I blame.?

She married twice! .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.