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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 18:11

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

What are mean nicknames to call my sister? She is always so mean to me.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

How did you become popular in school?

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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I think the readers, may guess!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

What are the bitter truths of life one should know?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But, we were locked up after school.

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

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But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

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Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And i lived it daily.

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I will be 64.

I was 9 years of age.

This is soul school!.

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But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

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We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

My family never makes their pension either.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Im still living with it.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

She married twice! .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I never cut or harmed myself..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But it wasn’t much.

Comes on , in middle age.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I have no regrets .

I waited trembling.

She loved him until the end.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I don,t even have a pension.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She was in good health!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

We were not on the streets..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He knew the spot.

Put me off passion for life!!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Why did i forgive my father ?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

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I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But ive been too sick for many years..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I write beautiful poetry .

So, i spoilt her more .

Would this be the day?

I was seconnd youngest,

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

All the time i was locked up.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

We all went to grammer schools

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

One cannot live in the past .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He resisted the act ,that day.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I could never make a relationship work though!

I couldn’t, believe it.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

So whats the point in blame.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I was very sick at this time too.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She found it foreign!.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I was scared of men, in general

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

When she asked me how she looked .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

What did i know ?

Ive learnt so much.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I said to her

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

My life is so biszare .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

It was going to be , some day.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Who then, do I blame.?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

She wouldn,t have been !

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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